Words Needing Music

A thousand suns in confrontation A terrified soul mirrored A troubled girl, thought of  in all realities  The skin's geography betrays  failure and victory  The scream can indeed fill the universe  but you  The romantic's value is dying and dead  Learning again is easier than learning  Infinite portrayed expression Infinite feeling source Love versus need Need versus love Wishing since toil yields not what I want Want, that is, You Want, that is, Me

Words are inadequate a medium to explore.  The sentence stops abruptly. To explore what? But like I wrote. Words are inadequate. What I feel? What I think? I just know now. Yesterday and tomorrow are blanketed in a frenzy of anxiety and war.  So..  Now... A pebble drops in a calm crystal mirror lake. It forms lengthy yet calm ripples. Weirdly, the sound is deafening. Nuclear explosions and chaotic screams. It doesn't match the visage. Where the pebble floats is now, and what the pebble is, is me. Again I'm looking at the waves. What happened and what will, occupy me instead of my place on the lake. And what of the sound? I'm tired. I'm so tired. I didn't know. I thought that's how it was supposed to be. But it turns out I was traumatized. And I didn't find support. Just ridicule and loath. And then you came. And I never trusted your love. And then you hurt me as well. And now? Now I'm just trying to soothe the constant terror. Trying to feel ok with not

7 am This day started But I've not yet finished yesterday Before I do, I stumbled upon what you want to show the world It is beautifully sad It is desperately hopeful It is ache in colour It is depth, skin deep I'm in love with you Before I was an idea, it was you I wanted Because you are humanity's attempt to escape from the jungle Yet you are an animal Smoking your cigarette Looking down Always down... Pondering in solitude among solitudes  Drinking and screaming and fucking and singing and crying so loud it turns to laughter Damn, I want to be inside you and look around without touching  Humbly observe in awe the miracle you are  Because you are not human Yet most human anyone ever was You are art You are the whole universe's beauty contained inside a tiny little cute pot  called girl And you're bursting at the seams You'll explode if you don't express this madness that is existence  This awesome prank of God  So you're taking pictures like galaxies