Betrayal

"Dearest,

You tore my heart out. You took it in your den of misery and found ways to exact every ounce of pain imaginable. You're so cruel. You always were. I've always loved you, I always needed your care and your love. I can't exist without you. 

I've always screamed my lungs out begging for your attention and affection. And you filled them with that disgusting smoking habit you have. I needed you to touch my body and caress it dearly. You abandoned it to wither, starved of touch like a thirsty flower.

You abused my soul. You disrespected me so much. You belittled my innocent need for contact, darkened my light, drowned my confidence and then abandoned me when I'm filled with pain.

You are the only one for me. The only one who was supposed to ever love me. Who would push me. Who would be there for me. For whom I'd be number one. Me and noone else. Until I die. 

I've begged you for far too long. No more. 

And yet. 

I still want you.

I still demand your love.

Because there's noone else for me. Only you.

I've loved you since I met you and since there's only you, then I have no options but you.

Still... I genuinely love you. And I need you to genuinely love me. I will give you all the second chances you demand. And I'll forever wait for one moment of your attention and loving gaze.

Till death comes.

Because there's absolutely no other person, whose love will make me feel worthy, beautiful, sexy, confident, safe, quiet, calm, content, happy.

Only

You

Yours forever,

Yourself"